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01 October 2007 @ 05:40 pm
It's days like this when I'm really not sure I can do all this...  
At least not all at the same time.

I had part of a test in my Modern Japanese class (the vocab/kanji part) and a kanji quiz in my Classical Japanese - that means in total today I was expected to be able to reproduce 60 odd kanji and know the meaning of more than 150...

I don't exactly know how I'm supposed to be able to do that.  Even though about 150 of those were kanji I'd previously had in quizzes (so theoretically I had already studied for them and knew them) I still just ...

Part of me feels like I'm dropping the ball.  The other part of me feels like my brain is not functioning properly (dehydration?  too many graphics, not enough brian quizzes?  too many drugs when I was younger?  who knows?), and I want to scream.  I don't honestly know if I was set up for failure or not - I like to think my advisor would have considered having me take just one of these classes if she really knew what was going on - but there's no way I'm performing at the top of my game all the time. 

Frustratingly, the Classical homework I did last night actually didn't even apply today - we spent the day going over more poetry.  That means that the hour and a half I spent doing it last night... well, it's not time lost or anything, because we're going to talk about the next text at some point, but I could've used that for something else.  Making endless flashcards.  Something.

Tonight's plan:  grade tests for a couple of hours.  Imput test scores into grade sheet.  Review readings from Modern Japanese, make some grammar flashcards and some synonym flashcards (since that's a component of the test), then translate the practice test she gave us so I'll recognize all the directions on Wednesday.

Tomorrow?  Get to school at 9:30 or so, hand out graded tests/new group assingments/participation grades, actually go to class, grab lunch in my hour between that and my seminar, seminar away for three hours, then meet half of my Modern Japanese class for a study session from 5-7:30 pm or so.  I figure I'll be home around 8:30 pm, and then I get to spend the rest of the night working on Modern Japanese ... studying in the hopes I'll be able to get a decent grade on our first test. 

just a couple of days and I'll be through it and onto the next hurdle.  That's what I keep telling myself.
your royal pie-nessentrenous88 on October 1st, 2007 06:55 pm (UTC)
So sorry this course load is feeling so overwhelming right now. *hugs*
my monkied brainkatekat1010 on October 2nd, 2007 12:30 am (UTC)
thanks lady. *clings* i'm sure this will pass... eventually. the semester has to end at some point ;)
Sofysoft_princess on October 1st, 2007 07:08 pm (UTC)
*hugs you tight* I'll send good vibes your way, sweetie. *hugs more*
my monkied brainkatekat1010 on October 2nd, 2007 12:30 am (UTC)
*snuggles you tight* the good thoughts are TOTALLY appreciated. i will make it, somehow...
literate and stylish: uni angst with JDmishloran on October 1st, 2007 07:17 pm (UTC)

just a couple of days and I'll be through it and onto the next hurdle. That's what I keep telling myself.

I know it sounds trite, but it's true nevertheless. Sometimes things just get on top of you, whether they should or not. You just have to grit your teeth and drag your way through it. It'll be the weekend in a couple of days, but for now I suggest a small glass of wine, perhaps, and a good tv show or something. Sometimes the brain just goes "uuuurrrrrrpppppp" and you need to sleep on it to reboot, or something.

*snuggles* you'll get through this, and you can do it. I know you can!
my monkied brainkatekat1010 on October 2nd, 2007 12:31 am (UTC)
does it count if i graded tests during heroes? I'm not sure... but you're right, i need a minute or two for the brain to reset. *kicks time* why does it go by so fast?

and just to compare, was there any point in latin you were learning that many vocab at a time?
literate and stylish: buffy mewsmishloran on October 2nd, 2007 04:12 am (UTC)
I have no idea how or why it seems to go by so fast, no!

And... no. I don't think so. But I only did GCSE (that's like the exams you take when you're 16) Latin, so it probably got a lot more hardcore later on? ... But my main problem with Latin is not the vocab, but the grammar, and seeing the vocab THROUGH the grammar. If that helps?

Hope today goes better for you!
BJ: Goddessdara_starscream on October 1st, 2007 11:34 pm (UTC)
(opens your skull and shoves in KNOWLEDGE!)

Well it worked on Rocco. :-D

Hang in there honey. All you can do is what you can do.
my monkied brainkatekat1010 on October 2nd, 2007 12:32 am (UTC)
i need that silly machine from the matrix dammit!!

(and seriously, if you could do that, i'd sit still for the operation... seriously)

Lostgirllostgirlslair on October 1st, 2007 11:58 pm (UTC)
Oh, poor sweetie!! ::hugs you lots:: I'm so sorry it's all piling on, darlin'! Hang in there!! ::more huge hugs and lots of good vibes::
my monkied brainkatekat1010 on October 2nd, 2007 12:33 am (UTC)
*massive massive clings* thanks darling. I'm trying my very best to do this without whimpering too much, and you've certainly let me cry on your shoulder. it's sad that i can't wait for the semester to end and we're less than halfway through it.
Lostgirllostgirlslair on October 4th, 2007 12:58 am (UTC)
::hugs and pets:: Don't worry about 'whining' just get through it! ::nods:: Poor darlin'! ::more huge hugs and pets::
Elite Nerd Patrol, On Dutymechassninja on October 2nd, 2007 09:26 pm (UTC)
i know exactly how you feel, school is just killing me right now (it's like being run over with a clown car everyday....). maybe it's japan fever. ;p but seriously, i feel like i'm just barely pulling through on everything rather than doing well. ergh.