May 12th, 2005

b/g - in the library

evil ear infection

Cotton balls. My head is stuffed with cotton balls. I have two fears: ears and eyes.

Eyes are easy - I just can't watch anything done with someone else's eyes. No surgery, no poking, no weird flipping up of the eyelid. The easiest way to terrorize me is to pretend to poke your own eye. I shudder and shake and turn away.

But ears - it's just the lack that makes me crazy. The wooly headed feeling, the muffled sounds. I want to climb the walls and all I hear is the echo of my own voice. It's not pretty. I wasn't meant to live inside my head like this.

So I do everything and anything to avoid ear problems. And now I've got one. And I'm slowly going insane. 9:15 am is the dr's appointment, and then I'll hopefully get some relief.