- love the texts you're working on
- if you do what you do will have meaning
- don't forget the theory; and Freud may have gotten everything wrong but he's useful
(ok, that's probably the subject of a much longer post, because it's a gut feeling and something I have a little trouble articulating, but the basic premise is that honestly? we all employ theory all the time to make most of our judgements, we just pretend we don't).
And today I am beginning to freak out for intellectual reasons. The new school is a great environment, and I'm getting to work with someone whose work totally excites me, but on the other hand I'm feeling a little lost at this moment in time. I have two 20-page papers due in a couple of weeks and I have absolutely NO idea what it is I want to write for either of them. Some vague notion of new media in Japan, and some vague idea about post-war Japanese film and that's all I've got.
On the way home I realized that part of my trouble is that I'm not speaking intellectually to anyone in my field right now. Oh, the girls in my cohort are nice, but they're all in slightly different areas (hello classical Chinese linguistics, do you care about my stuff? do i care about yours? not for paper writing/discussion). I've got to try tomorrow to meet with my advisor and figure out what direction I'm taking this semester. It's overdue, and I think I let the fact that she and I are not getting along like houses on fire sort of distract me. Just because we don't get each other doesn't mean I shouldn't talk with her about these things.
I know. *hangs head* figuring out this whole business seems like it's long overdue. I can't believe the semester is done in like two weeks.