my monkied brain (katekat1010) wrote,
my monkied brain

Words of probable truth

My horoscope for this week:

LIBRA (Sept. 23-Oct. 22): In the weeks ahead, Libra, you're going to be
tested on your follow-through. People will want you to work harder on
what has previously come fairly easily. You will be pressured to make
good on your promises; you'll be asked to refine the details that are
central to the success of the good new ideas that are floating around. As
much as you might be tempted to slip away and fly off in pursuit of
things that are more fun, I encourage you to stick with the program. You
can't imagine how important it is for you to learn how to be a more
committed builder.

Couldn't be more germane if it tried!!

Ok, so first off, the conference went GREAT!!  But oh my god my brain hurt from the information overload!  You try sitting in on 4 panels a day, 4 people each panel, each presentation going for at least 20 minutes, sometimes on things you know a little about but sometimes not, mostly read in slightly monotone voices .... it was painful in all the best ways!

First, and probably most awesome, was that my presentation was well received!  I did have one spelling mistake in my damn power point, but other than that, one of the conference organizers (who is a sorta Big Man in Japanese Lit) came over and actually told me "Good Presentation"!!  Which is a BIG DEAL, since I was kind of a little fish swimming in a big pond as far as presentations go.  I was so worried about hitting the time limit because I wasn't going to be able to talk as fast as I am used to that I cut out great swaths of analysis to get to my main points.  I was reediting down to the last night, just because I wanted it to go smoothly and feel natural.  And I forgot entirely to bring up my "future questions this raises" -- BUT, the other Big Man in the room actually asked two of my most important "future questions" as questions in the Q&A, which was great because then I could say "why yes, I'm so glad you brought that up because I was pressed for time in the presentation, but here's what I think......." and be all awesome when he thought he might trip me up.  SO YAY YAY!

OH, wait, that was supposed to be the good paragraph.  The YAY paragraph was going to be about how I got to see my old advisor (who is not old) from Texas and catch up - we had coffee and quickly did some stuff on Friday and went to lunch on Saturday and she gave me great notes on my presentation for the future and we went to lunch on Friday and I got to talk with her about her own work and offer opinions and IT WAS YAY!  Also yay was finding a free-trade coffee place just down from where the conference was being held that was awesome that I pretty much went to every day to get my actual coffee fix.  Also yay was getting to stay with a friend of a friend who is the Yale Japan librarian, who made sure I safely and timely got to the conference and back her her place on time and everything.  OH, and also yay???  ONE OF THE STUDENTS THERE HAD WORKED ON TETSUO AND HAD CITED MY MA THESIS IN HIS BIBLIOGRAPHY.

That's right bitches, I've been cited.  How fucking cool is that?

And then the OOOOOO is really for the surprisingly tasty mashed potato and bacon pizza I ate for lunch on Saturday while hanging out with a bunch of people from the conference, the fact that I got to say "thank you for your theory about Intercorporation" (used in above mentioned MA Thesis) to one of the professors I almost went and worked with in British Columbia, the fact that I talked to one Japanese guy who was there whose advisor is Takauchi, whose wife is Mari Kotani, THE woman who does sci fi and cyberpunk literature and theory in Japan -- who gave me his card and told me he'd give me an introduction to her when I next went to japan, AND oh AND the fact that one of the women who gave this really interesting presentation on a manga said she'd be teaching Densha Otoko (the subject of my presentation) in her classes over the next couple of years and when I published my paper to please email it to her so she can use it in class. 

That's right bitches, someone wants to put my shit on their fucking syllabus.

So after all that?  I was SO tired that I ended up skipping the third day of presentations and just made my way home through the non-rainy frigging beautiful Connecticut countryside.  Flights went just fine.  Day was beautiful.  I took three pictures (lazy and brain dead I tell you)

But now, to explain the horoscope:

I was tired when I got home.  Picked up the dog yesterday (and oh my gods she was happy to see me!) and basically we hung out all day doing not much.  I finally roused myself to take her on a walk in the evening.  Rain, plus the combo of travel and the extreme nerves / relief from the conference definitely did me in.  And last night I was sitting there trying to motivate to do Tuesday's homework and just ... yeah, trouble with a capital T.

I keep having motivation problems.  I have all these distractions, including asshole housemate who seems to be on her way to moving out, since she's moved out all her furniture and even the fridge (yes, and that was not fun, all of our stuff is now on ice until I can call and buy a fridge tomorrow, oh joy), but who then sends me utterly incomprehensible emails claiming that the landlord is racist and that me and boy!housemate better call fair housing and LAHD and report her for what she's doing and that Asha is just trying to be FAIR and that it's me and boy!housemates' responsibility to make the landlord give Asha her money back and a copy of her lease because otherwise Asha isn't going to give US our deposit back.

But then, of course, when I ask her "are you going to pay us our deposit back" she walks out of the house on the phone with her friend, and when I follow her, says that it's Mayuree that needs to be straightened out and that Asha has the money to give us our deposits back.  And that we'd better watch ourselves blah blah blah... and THEN has the gall to tell ME that I'm the one who is making a hostile environment and yelling at her in an email. 

OH, and just sent me an email saying that I violated my lease agreement with her so she doesn't have to give me back any of my deposit.  SUCH A FUCKING BITCH.

Anyway, see why my concentration is shot?  All I want to do is read fic all day.  As a matter of fact, I think I'll go do that right now ...

also posted to dreamwidth | you can reply here or there | um, but don't worry, i'm still an lj girl
Tags: adventures in la la land, phd program, rants, school, squee

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