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21 March 2011 @ 10:21 pm
Monday's child is fair in face . . .  
... Getting a cold instead of enjoying my spring break, a cold where I didn't want to do anything and couldn't focus on anything except marathoning TV (seriously, I couldn't stand to read until Thursday).  Based on the cough I decided to quit smoking, which ultimately is a good thing, but not exactly comfortable or fun to go through.  I had one night the first weekend where I literally rocked myself through the night dealing with fever and headache, sweating and miserable and begging my body to please cool down.  I ended up turning down going out with friends, meeting up with other friends for their monthly 'do' (that I have missed for the last three months and I hate it) and the most exciting thing I did the entire week was take the dog to the dog park a bunch because I wasn't well enough to walk her myself and getting my laundry finished at a friend's house because I wanted to use her spiffy washer & dryer.  I didn't want to really be around people because I was sick, but I also felt lonely and moderately miserable and pretty friendless.  It culminated yesterday in feeling absolutely depressed because I didn't go out for a week, didn't get the work done I was supposed to, didn't see anyone for any meaningful contact and I had absolutely nil motivation for anything else.  Oh, and I figured out the budgeting of what I'm actually spending/actually going to need for summer school and it was going to suck.

So yeah, basically, I wasn't feeling glass half full, or silver-lining observant, or anything starting out today.

However, I'm better with Mondays.  I think part of the raise in spirits is that I'm moody due to the quitting smoking, and if I just wait it out a little and keep doing what I need to do my emotional outlook will change. 

And, while I started out this morning not feeling ok, the following things happened:
  • Even though it rained so much yesterday (and thundered hard enough yesterday morning to set car alarms off), the clouds rolled back and blue skies began to peek out as soon as I headed out for school
  • I got free parking when I drove to the university
  • I took my almost-a-month-overdue-book back to the library, and due to a computer system glitch I had NO fines to pay (even though I was supposed to be charged like $15)
  • Going to class was actually fun, even if it was exhausting
  • Co-student was not annoying today - I think I'm finally getting over myself so she doesn't distract me or drive me up the wall or make me want to hit her etc.
  • Talked to my parental units and it was good - I'm figuring out all kinds of things for summer and it looks like it's going to work out ok.  It's not going to be necessarily easy, but it will work out.
  • I caught the broccoli just before it went bad and made myself broccoli cheese soup for dinner, and it was tremendously tasty ... all part of my plan to NOT let things go bad in the fridge but actually, you know, eat all the food I buy.

Day by day. That's what I'm doing, day by day. (so the next couple of days may be obnoxious as i try to list happy things...)

also posted to dreamwidth | you can reply here or there | um, but don't worry, i'm still an lj girl
Elite Nerd Patrol, On Duty: aaghmechassninja on March 22nd, 2011 04:20 am (UTC)
gurlll you should've been up here. i made a whole st. patty's day meal and everyone crapped out on me, so i ate it with the cat and had a doctor who marathon. i miss you. hope you keep feeling better and better.
my monkied brain: buffywill - *glomp*katekat1010 on March 26th, 2011 05:37 pm (UTC)
literate and stylish: hug youmishloran on March 22nd, 2011 06:44 am (UTC)
mew, being sick is miserable. :( *petpetpetpetpet*

If you are ever awake at ridic-o-clock for you and lonely and miserable, email me and I shall come online and mew at you to try to make you less so, though. (Internet = no face-to-face but also no chance of making other people sick!) x
my monkied brain: buffywill - *hug*katekat1010 on March 26th, 2011 05:38 pm (UTC)
awww thank you darlingest!! *squishes you to pieces for the offer* and it would be good that i couldn't infect you!
bexmaddybexmaddy on March 23rd, 2011 01:15 am (UTC)
I am so happy you quit smoking. It is still one of the hardest things I've done and I still get urges to start (or have just one, but that's the problem: it's never just *one*). Anyways, I know how difficult it is and can be. I really wish I could hug you.
my monkied brain: buffywill - *glomp*katekat1010 on March 26th, 2011 05:40 pm (UTC)
I am too. It definitely was an expensive crutch that I needed to stop for a whole host of reasons. I keep trying to remember to have patience with myself about all the stuff that comes *with* quitting. Thanks for the hug-thoughts, seriously, it helps!

night darling!