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17 September 2011 @ 01:20 pm
i now have a problem  
and that problem is that i really want to make graphics, but i don't have time because i have to do homework.  and write a research statement. and form my committee. and possibly go out for drinks tonight.  and definitely walk the dog.


i didn't get stood up last night or anything - we were talking about the weekend via online, and when we got down to making the real plans it turned into Saturday, not Friday night.  And it may actually not happen - guy has family in town due to a death in the family (weird, but hey, life does happen and he doesn't seem that broken up about it), and if they go out to dinner tonight then he and i won't be meeting up.  Which is fine with me as I'm not going to be sitting around waiting ... i'll be sitting around doing homework, which is what i always do on weekend nights cuz i am just that awesome.  and such is the life of a grad student.

i think it's good i'm not that invested in all of this. :D  means hopefully it will be entertaining and not too weird.

it has, however, caused me to dream about the ex for the last two nights running (at least i think that's what has caused it).  those have been annoying since in the dream i'm still caught in the emotional headspace i was before the breakup happened. 

oh, also, i don't know if this is his habit or if it's just because of the situation itself, but date!guy texts. often.

now, about school, i am being good and doing art history reading.  see:
To an artist, a picture is both a sum of ideas and a blurry memory of "pushing paint," breathing fumes, dripping oils and wiping brushes, smearing and diluting and mixing. Bleary preverbal thoughts are intermixed with the namable concepts, figures and forms that are being represented. The material memories are not usually part of what is said about a picture, and that is a fault in interpretation because every painting captures a certain resistance of paint, a prodding gesture of the brush, a speed and insistence in the face of mindless matter: and it does so at the same moment, and in the same thought, as it captures the expression of a face.
[ What Painting Is, James Elkins, 3 ]

isn't that kind of beautiful?

And finally, I just threw this up on Tumblr, but here are my current 10 favorite ships....
  1. Mike/Harvey - Suits
  2. Erik/Charles - XMen First Class
  3. Adam/Kris - AI S8 RPS
  4. Giles/Xander - Btvs
  5. Xander/Spike - Btvs
  6. Arthur/Merlin - Merlin
  7. John/Sherlock - Sherlock (BBC)
  8. Harry/Draco - Harry Potter
  9. Clark/Lex - Smallville
  10. Spike/Faith - Btvs

(ok, by 'favorite' i mean stuff that i'm super excited to read right now, and if i saw a fic posted about these ships i would totally attempt to ignore homework to read them).  WEIRD. Weird because I think I'm actually multifandom right now.  I mean, that's totally enabled by AO3, which is like baby seals mixed with crack for me right now.  Subscriptions, I love you deeply, madly, truly.  But I also blame you guys because you all aren't in the same fandoms anymore either, and you spread your wily fannish love, and I just want more things to READ that are hot and sexy and funny and also LONG.  And guess what?  That means that I am totally reading mad stuff all over the place!  Now if only I could put it into a recs list.  But that takes time too!! GRRR ARGH where is my personal time-turner?!

this borderline incoherent post brought to you by the fact that i should be reading more art history and i'm going back to it, right now, really, i am, i am!

also posted to dreamwidth | you can reply here or there | um, but don't worry, i'm still an lj girl
Vertigoakavertigo on September 17th, 2011 04:41 pm (UTC)
Oh, man, Elkins. I used to have such a shameless mental crush on his stuff. (Even though some of it is, to be fair, woefully sentimental.) What Painting Is is the hands down favorite, though Painting and Tears is yummy story food, too.
my monkied brain: b/g - in the librarykatekat1010 on September 17th, 2011 04:51 pm (UTC)
He's just so much fun compared to the dry cinema history things I've been reading - there's something awesome in the AH stuff because they don't have to prove their object of focus is worth looking at, and so they can go play with writing and stuff. Also amusing because in my other class I skimmed his "Visual Studies a skeptical reader" and boy is he a different writer for that!
samanthahirr: Got Me Wrongsamanthahirr on September 20th, 2011 10:15 pm (UTC)
Ha, it's true, vertigo was totally pimping the Elkins on me last week!
my monkied brainkatekat1010 on September 21st, 2011 12:34 am (UTC)
lolz, that's awesome. fandom brains unite!
berahtberaht on September 18th, 2011 08:45 pm (UTC)
AI? American Idol? There is slash fic about AMERICAN IDOL?

Sometimes I am scared to be a geek.
my monkied brainkatekat1010 on September 18th, 2011 08:50 pm (UTC)
you mean you haven't noticed that i've been posting artwork for AI-related fanfic for the last, oh, year?

ie: yes, yes there is. cover your eyes. you probably don't want to know ;)
berahtberaht on September 18th, 2011 08:57 pm (UTC)
I've not been paying much attention to LJ for a while now, and though I ♥ you, that's in spite of the fandominess, not because of it, so I miss a lot. :)
my monkied brainkatekat1010 on September 18th, 2011 09:03 pm (UTC)
it's totally ok - that was mostly a teasing comment because i totally understand scrolling past things, especially the fannish ones of which one is not involved! ;)
berahtberaht on September 18th, 2011 09:06 pm (UTC)
Oh, I know! I wouldn't've said anything at all if I had thought you would've taken it the wrong way.
i will write in words of fire: [dw] come fly with meposhlil on September 20th, 2011 02:10 am (UTC)
i'll be sitting around doing homework, which is what i always do on weekend nights cuz i am just that awesome. and such is the life of a grad student.

RIGHT? High five for you. :D

I am dangerously bordering on multifandom right now, which is weird, because for the longest time I've been almost solely single fandom. I'll have a small crossover period where I'm not ready to stop reading old ships (HP doesn't count, because the movies keep reminding me of my love for certain pairings) but where they're just not QUITE as shiny as the new ones. But omg, Peter and Olivia from Fringe are tempting me into my third current ship and I DONT HAVE ENOUGH HOURS IN MY DAY.
my monkied brainkatekat1010 on September 21st, 2011 01:58 am (UTC)
lol - the new shiny fandoms just suck us in, don't they? DAMN THEM AND THEIR PRETTY ANGST!
i will write in words of fireposhlil on September 21st, 2011 07:10 am (UTC)
ikr? (Oh, angst. The last episode of Fringe I saw was filled with it. UNSUITABLE, JJ Abrams.)