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27 March 2012 @ 11:09 pm
Japan-ho! (and all the other things too)  
I am simultaneously terrified and excited to announce that I was accepted into a year long program in Japan! And I was also awarded the funding I applied for, for both summer and the school year!

These are the fantastic things. The not so fantastic things are that the I did poorly on the placement test for the program and they want me to do a summer intensive program to get my japanese into shape (which, fine, I was planning on doing that anyway, but I can't go to Japan to do it, i have QUALIFYING EXAMS). Their acceptance letter actually ONLY has the option for me to accept going to the summer school as well, which is freaking me out. Also, the funding I got is less than 50% of the entire total of the program (their costs have tripled in the last year, which I forgot to check, because, shit, that's a lot). So, um, I can go because I got in but I can't because the money isn't there? And then I'm also freaking out about what to do with my stuff here while I'm going over there, and how to get enough stuff over there to live for a year. Like cognitively I can't even imagine it. Do I mail boxes of clothes? I'll be there in winter - it snows there in winter. ACK.

On the good side my mom has offered to take Domino so I don't have to find her a new home, which is amazing and generous and awesome. Also on the *hopefully* good side the head of the department, for all his driving me crazy, said something about trying to find more departmental money to help cover the costs, and who knows, it might actually work out. Another girl in my program also got in, and she's interested in possibly sharing an apartment, which would keep costs down. (On the other hand, when we had three classes together she drove me absolutely bug fucking insane, but I think I could handle it by putting earphones in all the time and not accepting her requests to go hang out or something.)

It's all terrifying and strange and ... really? this is my life? i think it might be. *looks around* whoah.

Also had a meeting with my advisor just to check in about the Qualifying Exam and hopefully I will be able to take it at the end of May, though there may be some difficulties with my committee members. But he was incredibly reassuring about my preparation, in that he said something to the effect of this:

Yes, do study, and the anxiety about the exam is something of a right of passage for everyone who takes it, and you should definitely take it seriously. But, there are different types of students: those who have blind spots in their knowledge, where the exam is a place to point them out, so they can be focused on and shored up before the student goes onto to further work; and those who do not know their field and so need to be checked because they cannot or should not go further; and finally those who the committee is assured already have the breadth of knowledge required. And you are one of those. If I had to, for some reason, cancel your exam and yet asked your committee members today if they would still pass you, they would say yes.

That's a hell of a vote of confidence. Made me think I'm doing something right after all.

also posted to dreamwidth | you can reply here or there | um, but don't worry, i'm still an lj girl
brutti_ma_buoni: japanese autumnbrutti_ma_buoni on March 28th, 2012 04:06 am (UTC)
Well, focusing on the great parts: you're going to Japan for a year, you'll get intensive language tuition and your advisor thinks you're fabulous. Plus, possible extra funding support which could make it all possible! Yay you!

(International shipping takes a while if you need to save money but is doable, btw. Not ordinary mailing, because meep $$$$. People like these guys do this all the time: http://www.excess-baggage.com/.)
my monkied brain: You Rockkatekat1010 on March 28th, 2012 02:40 pm (UTC)
thanks for the encouragement lady! and also for the website - that looks *really* helpful!!
seldomifever: b/gseldomifever on March 28th, 2012 08:24 am (UTC)
Congratulations! Sounds challenging and fun. Go you! :)
my monkied brain: b/g - look of lovekatekat1010 on March 28th, 2012 02:40 pm (UTC)
thanks sweetie! you got it in a nutshell ;)
your royal pie-nessentrenous88 on March 28th, 2012 08:53 am (UTC)
congratulations, how awesome!
my monkied brain: xander - excitedkatekat1010 on March 28th, 2012 02:41 pm (UTC)
thanks darlin!!!
Muriellemurielle on March 28th, 2012 01:02 pm (UTC)
It all sounds so exciting, and a little confusing, but more exciting, I think. Good luck with all the added excitement.

edited: removed lame advice for getting things you might need because someone who clearly knows what they're talking about gave great advice. ;-)

Edited at 2012-03-28 05:04 pm (UTC)
my monkied brain: SUITS_adorable harveykatekat1010 on March 28th, 2012 02:42 pm (UTC)
Re: Congratulations!
thank you lady! and you totally nailed it - simultaneously confusing and exciting is absolutely it! i keep trying to keep myself focused on the exciting part rather than on the rest of it ;)

Muriellemurielle on March 28th, 2012 08:07 pm (UTC)
Re: Congratulations!
::Hugs you back::
You will be posting from Japan, right? We won't lose you?
Sorry, slight panic there. ;-)
whichclotheswhichclothes on March 28th, 2012 06:28 pm (UTC)
I was able to fit everything I needed for February through June in Croatia in one large and one carry-on size bag--except for my books, which I shipped ahead. Take lots of basic clothing (black, gray, etc) and scarves to liven things up. :-)